And I am not even being sarcastic……I am a huge asshole.
I am probably one of the luckiest ppl on the face of the planet. I have a husband who fucking adores me, and what do I do…….I take him for granted.
He would literally move mountains for me, and I have gotten so wrapped up in my own head……that I have made him feel like he is no longer important, that I no longer want him, that I no longer adore him.
I fucking adore this man……I mean fucking adore him……The last few month, probably more like 6 months, I have made him feel like shit.
I love this man. I love him more than I have ever loved anyone, but I have allowed everything to come before him. EVERYTHING!!! I am a dick.
What the hell am I doing?!?!? What the hell am I doing to my sweet, kind, loving husband?!?! Turning him into a fucking basket case that is what I am doing….
Today, I am changing all that. Today I am putting my King first, back up on his pedestal, where he belongs!!
Cause honestly I do not give a fuck about anything but this man!! Everything else is just bullshit. He is what matters. I do not give a fuck about bending over backwards for anyone. Except him!!!
He is the only person in my life that deserves it!!!
He makes me happy, and I do not even show him that anymore. I am short with him, I am disrespectful to him, and I am def. not submissive to him like I should be. Yes, I can say it, I have been treating my poor King like shit. Taking everything out on him, like he did something to me. He has never done a thing to me except love the hell out of me.
So to my King, my loving King!!! I am truly sorry! I am truly sorry I let the world get the best of me!! I am truly sorry I am an asshole!! I should be your sweet submissive.
I am, my King!!! For this very second to the day I take my last breathe, I am your sweet submissive. I feel so much pain and guilt for the heartache that I have caused you.
You deserve more…..you deserve to have me back the way I was.
I will show you everyday, how much I adore you. I will show my King everyday that he is the love of my life.
I am sorry I have been the biggest stressed out asshole!!!
All that will be different…..I promise!
Stay Sticky my AMAZING WONDERFUL King!!!
I love you more than you will ever know. You are my happy.
Please forgive me of my short comings.
Only new better days ahead my, my Love.
It is FUCKING AMAZING to be queen!!!!