Well, Hello Everyone!
It has been over a month since I have blogged. I needed some time to do some soul searching. And make some life changes. I have spent my time really trying to dig deep…..and dig deep I did!
First, I really feel like I have gained a new perspective on my life and my past and my marriage! I am just going to say thing….my past is dead and buried….all the things that have happened to me. And all the things I have ever went through, I just have to let those go. I have to just move on from it. Because those ppl who hurt me, I already made the choice not to have them in my life so why am I continually letting them live in my heart. So eviction notices were served, and with tears, and should searching, and direction from my husband. I just let it go. I mean why not…..why hold on to things I can not change, Things that have held me prisoner for way to long. I shouldn’t! I won’t! I finally feel like I am free…….I am just going to live in my happy place with my husband and weirdos…..fuck the rest.
There have been huge changes made to my lifestyle. It is very odd to me how things like this even happen, but my whole life I could have dairy, never had an issue, and then boom one day out of the blue it just starts making me sick. So I cut it out, and then made the horrible mistake of talking myself into eating sour cream on a fajita……big mistake!!! I was horribly ill for 3 days! So that is it, no dairy for me. I have now been 2 weeks without dairy. It is very hard. I love all things creamy and milky. And mac and cheese is my FAVORITE! Time to find a new favorite! So I am adjusting to a life of alternate milk choices. It is getting easier and easier everyday.
Next I have decided to cut land dwelling meat from my diet, I am actually pretty excited about this, and have thought about it for a long time. After the eliminating dairy, eliminating meat will be a walk in the park. I can definitely feel my body detoxing. The pain from “fibromyalgia” has decreased by about 50%, and that makes me very happy. I am hoping that feeding my body healthy food and eliminating the food that slows us down I can be 100% pain free. I have an amazing support system, my husband and my kids are super encouraging. I could never get through this life change without them!
I am paying more attention to my calling, I have been meditating, getting back in touch with my witchy side……I can not neglect it…..it won’t let me. It is who I am, what I am! I am proud to be a witch, I am proud of my gifts…..5 months ago I would of said the opposite. Crazy how much life can change.
Even bigger changes in my marriage. I think we have grown to something more than a Dom/sub relationship. It is so much deeper than that. And it is better than ever. I just had to let down my walls and let him in. It is so odd when you do that how much more you learn about a person. I feel like I know and love my husband so much more than I did a month ago. He is more to me now than he ever has been. He is truly my heart. There is not another human on the planet I love more than him. We are growing together and changing together. We are supportive, and are not letting ourselves be held down by labels (Dom/sub) or how the world views a relationship should be. Cause this is our relationship, and we def do not fit into any mold, I think we are a little bit of everything, and when you let all that come through. It seriously changes how your relationship works. It changes how you see your partner. I see him for so much more than I ever did before! I see all the great things about him. I love that we are the same, we are the same kind of weird.
So I am going to end this there. Thanks for reading!!
It’s good to be ME!!!