Sometimes I feel like I am fighting an uphill battle.
Sometime I get super tired of having to be the responsible one, the one who keeps everyone on task, the one who makes sure everyone is doing what they are told, and that everyone knows where they have to be. Normally I am fine with all this. But with 5 kids and a husband, sometimes you just get worn out…..
I am just going to add this right now….my life is amazing, I have a great husband and seriously the best kids two parents could ask for! My husband takes amazing care of us, he works hard, he is present with myself and the kids, he is fun, he honestly makes me so happy. Or kids are AWESOME!! they are some pretty amazing ppl, they have huge hearts they, are so good to each other, so good to us, they are funny, and each one has their very own personality, so you can imagine there is never a dull moment in our house.
But with all this, I keep this well oiled machine running, and lately the kids have been really stretching me. We have one who is an awesome kid, he is funny, he is helpful, he is super animated. But he is very unorganized, so he never knows were anything is, he is always forgetting something (homework)…….I hate that everyday I have to talk to him about where all his stuff is, we have a rule, that if he does not bring home his math book and homework every day, then that night he can not watch TV or use video games. I know that he tries, he really does. That kids get so bummed when he forgets his stuff. I mean you can honestly tell he is not doing it on purpose, he is just energized all the time, that he honestly does forget. I mean he is who he is, he will probably struggle his whole life with being scatterbrained. So we met with his teacher today, and she is going to give him tools to help him at school (checklist) and we are going to do the same at home. Hopefully some visuial reminders can help him stay a little more organized.
We have another one who again amazing kid, such a sweet soul, and he is uber organized, but he has a really hard time at school (He was diagnosis with Autism and Generalized Anxiety disorder) He does have an IEP at school, and he is a special education student. He is super smart and he has some amazing talents, but anything to with writing, especially about his feelings is hard for him, school is tough……for anyone…..but he is 14 now, and he just doesn’t want to stick out in the crowd anymore. He wants to just be like the other kids…..He is 6’1″….so he already stands out for that. He does not like to get pulled out of class anymore (speech, social work, individual testing). I get it…….I totally get what he is feeling. And I know it is hard for him, I know he wants nothing more to blend in, but everything about him makes him stand out. So we get a lot of emails, there are a lot of meetings, a lot of phone calls.
The next was this boy is really just sweet, has a huge heart, and he is so so so funny. I swear he should be a comedian. But he has just started puberty, even got his first pimple yesterday 😦 Poor guy! And the change he is going through, is so up and down. He very easily can have his feelings hurt, and he very easily can get frustrated…….puberty is tough, we have all been there, it makes your brain go crazy, you upset but you have no idea why you are upset, you are sad but don’t know why you are sad…..not to mention what is happening to you body. Yeah it is a tough period in life. And this guy is feeling it lately. So he can be a bit moody.
Our oldest son, I gotta say….I don’t really have much going on with him right now. He is pretty open to taking advice right now. He kinda keeps to himself a little. He is an awesome kids, he is amazing in sports….the kids can run, he can definitely play football, he is an amazing kicker!! Even though we do no allow him to play football, he is only 15 his brain is still devolping, and we just do not want him out there getting slammed around damaging his brain. But he does run track, and let me tell you this kids is fast!! He is an awesome big brother, my King was just telling me the other day, when I was showing him pics of all 5 kids squished into a tiny photo booth, He said “It is so cool that Corey is almost 16 and still likes to hang out with his siblings and do fun stuff like this with them.” It really made me think….and yes that is awesome, so I told him that on the way home from school, and he said, “Yeah, cause they are my friends, mom. I like hanging out with them.” In a moment like this, you know you are doing something right. I was proud that he said that….(so sorry my King that you are reading this here, last night was busy with company and I honestly did not even think of it until just now. :)) I love that all the weirdos love hanging out with each other. I love that they are not just siblings, but that they are friends.
Oh, my darling sweet daughter, the only girl left in the house (our other daughter is 21) and this girl is my heart, she is sweet, she is helpful, she never complains, she is my best friend. This girl is great. She is the other one that I am not to worried about, she gets excellent grades, she is in band, and drama, and she loves art and music….actually all of our kids really love music, a lot of music in our house. We do everything together, we are always attached at the hip. I love that she is open with me and we can have long conversations, I love that she is snuggle up with me all day in bed and watch Twilight…..We have already watch4 of the 5 movies, and she loves them, this is her first time watching it….her sister loved them too. So it is fun getting to share it again. if your read my previous post, about being a witch….my daughter is also an Empath. So that is where most of my help comes in, I did not have anyone when I was growing up with this to help me and walk me through it. Teach me ways to shield and meditate, breathing exercises, just some one to help me through it. So I am very glad that my daughter share this gift, and I am very glad I get to help her along the way.
We do have 2 older children who are adults and no longer live at home. But I am going to write about them separately
OK, so what was this blog about……..I think I was frustrated, and look at that, I am not frustrated anymore…..wow this was almost like a therapy session. I really did start this post with all intentions of just venting……But, I guess the thought I had to put into each child, and talking about some of the amazing thing they do……I think that was good for me, cause it really does show me that the good does outweigh the bad……..and if I look at it from the big picture……well damn, they all are doing pretty damn good. I am their mom, I want to help them, I want to guide them.
I know that we got this……..we totally have this, cause damn we have some pretty fantastic weirdos!!!
Wow, this was good for my soul, I am glad I wrote this!!
It’s good to be Mom!!